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The Uniquely Me Tag!

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I love this tag. I’ve had my eye on it for a while, after it was created by the lovely Elm a while ago.

Being depressed, socially anxious, and having low self-esteem means that I’ve often thought of myself as having no personality and being flat-out boring. It’s hard believing in yourself, that you’re someone with something to offer when you have a chemical imbalance in your brain.

Making a list of reasons that I love myself, or reasons that I feel make me unique, has always made me feel better. I was actually planning on publishing a post with something like what this tag does, but when the tag came out, I decided to do this (the tag) instead.

Being as cool as I am;) I was planning on nominating myself 😂 …but I didn’t have to, for the amazing Dreams and Waves as well as lovely Kate from All the Trinkets did! Thank you so much!

The Rules

  1. Thank the person that nominated you for this tag and link back to their blog
  2. Write as many things that are unique to you as possible: these can be things that you do, say, like or have that make you different to other people or let you stand out. It can be what defines you as a person, a little thing about you that is just simply you or something little known that you think makes you up as a person.
  3. Nominate up to 10 bloggers or as many as you like; there isn’t a limit.
  4. You can take this tag as seriously or non-seriously as you like; you can laugh whilst doing it or feel contemplative: this is about you, after all.
  5. After you’ve written this and if you ever feel like there’s nothing to you but what other people have already said and done, look back to your post and remember that it isn’t true. (I love this part!)

What is Unique About Me

What is unique about me?..um… this is a problem

Ok, I got it! 😂

  • I don’t watch TV shows…at all. I don’t have Netflix, or Hulu. I don’t have cable either.
  • I love old, classic books! I love older classics more than modern young adult reads.
  • Whenever I watch YouTube videos, I turn on the captions. I can hear perfectly fine; it’s just that I have to read what people are saying.
  • I can’t stand being cooped up indoors all day- I must. Go. Outside. I guess I’m like the opposite of a vampire- I need my daily sunshine, people!
  • I love taking long hikes in the woods and going to the beach.
  • Speaking of beaches, I love water! Whether it be from the beach or the sea or a swimming pool or a lake, I love it.
  • I am obsessed with stationery. Maybe because it makes me seem organized?
  • I have a fierce love of animals. So much that stepping on a snail causes me mild distress, and I don’t even like seeing fish in pet shops.
  • I can understand, but not speak, read, or write my native language.
  • I find history really interesting. Old things- antiques, old houses, stuff in museums fascinate me– they all have a story!
  • I love GIFs and emojis and smiley faces, as you probably can tell:) they just liven everything up! I also dislike, or at least try to avoid using, sad emojis. I overuse the laughing-crying face.
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  • On several occasions when I was playing tennis matches and losing, I smiled through it LOL. I smile and laugh lots:)
  • It is so difficult for me to be concise when I’m writing about something I love. Once I did an assignment that was supposed to be 3-4 pages long; mine was eight.
  • Kindness is my top priority. I try to be kind to everyone, whether they be kind to me or not.
  • I am a depressed optimist;) anybody else?

And I Nominate:

ALL OF YOU READING! Yayyyyyyy!!!!

I am serious; there is no limit on how many people that you can nominate. If you wish to do the tag, here is your chance! I really love this tag and think that there’s a great message behind it. It’s always nice to realize how many good things there are about yourself! So I won’t nominate specific people, since all of you should have the chance to do it if you want to:)

Xoxo, c. 😊


P.S. Please, really, do it! I’m looking forward to reading your posts:) If you really want to put down who nominated you, you could put my name or maybe you could say that this tag was “suggested by” Cate? LOL I don’t know. I don’t think it matters too much though;) have fun!

Oh and comment below if you did do it! I would love to read all of yours. Just remember not to leave a link, or your comment might be sorted out into spam. Try saying something like agirlanddepression at wordpress instead of agirlanddepression.wordpress.com


Note: This is a scheduled post; I’m currently at Disneyland, hanging out with the mutant mice 😂

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11 Interesting Facts About Me; (the Sunshine Blogger Award!)

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Hi all!:)

I’ve been nominated for the Sunshine Blogger Award by the amazing Pocket Treasures! Please check out her blog; it is fantastic:) Her tagline includes “Changing the World With One Act of Kindness at a Time!” which I absolutely love. Her posts include things about being Muslim, girl power, inspiration, parenting, and life as a British expat mom in UAE- all super interesting!

She actually nominated me a looooong time ago, so whoops 😂

As you probably know, I write anonymously, so I find it very fun to tell you facts about me that you wouldn’t know otherwise. This is my excuse to do so.

Please be aware: my answers are by no means concise. My English teacher would cry.


The Rules for the Award:

  1. Thank the person who nominated you, and provide a link to their blog.
  2. Answer the 11 questions sent by the person who nominated you.
  3. Nominate 11 blogs, and write 11 questions that you’d like them to answer.
  4. List the rules, and display the Sunshine Blogger Award logo on your post and/or on your blog!

Pocket Treasure’s Questions for Me: 

1. Who inspires you?

My mom inspires me. She’s one exceptional woman- she was born into poverty but fought her way up to become a doctor. She overcame challenges to do so; not only the issue of money but because of political aspects as well (I’m not going to give away too many details:) Once she reached her dream career, she didn’t forget about the people like who she once was- she volunteered to help provide free healthcare for the poor, even travelling to some other countries! My mother, to me, is a beautiful woman, with courage, smarts, and love all in one ❤️

2. What would you like to be remembered as?

I think that I would most like to be remembered as someone kind, or someone who helps make a positive impact on other people’s lives. I aspire to be someone who lifts other people up and helps them, whether it be through my future career, offering random acts of kindness, providing a shoulder for someone who needs it, volunteering, or even through this blog. That is what would make me the most happy, and what I’d love to do.

3. What would you like to do which is totally outside your comfort zone?

Ooh, this is a good question! As someone living with depression and social anxiety, my comfort zone is about the size of a cardboard box. 😂 If I were to wander out of my comfort zone, the first thing that I would do is to just talk in class. (Lame answer?) It’s already pretty difficult for me to socialize and not feel nervous or feel as if people are judging me- I even get that feeling blogging! Actually, I think that starting a blog itself was out of my comfort zone, so I’m happy that it worked out!

4. What things can you not live without?

Does family count as a thing? haha:)

In terms of actual objects, books. Books. Books. I guess I can just lose my phone- a bit difficult, but not enough that I’d need it to “live”.  Actually, the internet is really important, too- I’ll say I can ditch my phone but preferably keep my laptop.

5. What’s your favorite book?

Harry Potter, all the way:) As you may have read in My Story, when I was depressed as a kid, I compulsively read it over and over and over again. This probably sounds really sad, because it is. However, reading it was a form of escapism for me, and helped me feel less depressed. Harry Potter is an intricately written book- the characters and the world that JK Rowling created are so palpable that it seemed to introduce a whole new world to me. Harry Potter was the first book (series) that I truly loved. Out of the Harry Potter series, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince (Book 6) is my favorite.

Also, *fun fact* I thought that Harry Potter was set in America for probably the whole half of the first book 😂And I learned practically all the British English terminology I know from that series.

6. What is your favorite quote that you live by?

Too many to choose from! If I had to choose one, I think it would be

“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind.” -Dr. Seuss


7. If you were the president of America, what one thing would you change?

OH what a good question.

I am very passionate about equal rights; for women, the LGBTQ+ community, religious groups, and racial/ethnic groups. If I could only change one thing… Oh my goodness. I do not know.

But if I could only change one thing, I’d probably pass stricter anti-discrimination laws in general.

8. What would you say to your younger self?

I’d tell myself to relax, have fun, and not be scared in trying new things and making friends! I’d also say that no pain lasts forever, and people are always here to help if I need any.

hmm… I should listen to my own advice 😂

9. What’s your favorite comfort food?

One of my mom’s dishes- I would say more but I don’t want any chance of threatening my anonymity. Anything that she makes is great.

Besides that, I love kettle-style popcorn- I have almost an unhealthy obsession with it; I don’t know why. But it is so good!

10. What makes your day instantly better?

Writing posts on my blog or reading other blogs! It just makes me so happy. I love reading about other people’s lives or what they have to say.

11. What thing do you miss doing as a kid?

I’d say that what I miss doing most is watching my favorite little kid shows (most of them now off the air or changed significantly) such as Caillou or Dragon Tales or Reading Rainbow or Mr. Roger’s Neighborhood. I also miss playdates- they were fun.


For the part that I’m sure many of you scrolled straight down to read;)

 

Nominations (in alphabetical order):

  1. Clumsy and Silly
  2. My Life Online
  3. Wolfish Delight
  4. All The Jazz
  5. Adventuring Girl
  6. Paper Girl
  7. Dancers Ballet Life
  8. Life of Angela
  9. Beachy Girl Monique
  10. Blogging Sunsets 
  11. Teen Inspirations
  12. YOU who’s reading!!:):)

I tried to nominate people who I think participate in awards, but making an award post is completely up to you.

And YOU, reading this can do it too! I get that you’re only supposed to nominate 11 people, but a) not everyone will do it b) I don’t like excluding people. At all. c) Who cares?! 😂 If you don’t want to say that you got the award itself, you could at least answer my questions for the nominees if you want;) I know that all of you care about your blogs, and there are a lot of fantastic blogs out there that I couldn’t nominate!


My 11 Questions (for all of you;)

  1. When and why did you start blogging?
  2. What is your favorite thing to do when you first get home?
  3. If you could travel anywhere you wanted in the world, where would you go and why?
  4. What is one misconception people commonly have about you?
  5. If you had a time-travelling machine, what would you do with it?
  6. What is your favorite song to listen to when you’re feeling down?
  7. If you were stuck on an island with only one other person, who would you choose and why?
  8. What is your favorite food when you want to indulge?
  9. What would the perfect day be like for you?
  10. What values/quotes/mantras/ideas do you try to live by?
  11. What is something that you wish other people would know about you?

Hope you have fun answering the questions!

xoxo, c.

P.s. one more post for awards coming soon. After that set, I am unsure if I will continue doing awards posts. Do any of you have opinions on awards? I know that many people don’t participate, so I’d love to hear your opinion:)


This is a scheduled post. I am currently traveling to Anaheim for Disneyland; will be back on Saturday. 

The it’s a small word theme song is already stuck in my head XD 

also, is it just me, or do I sound annoying in this post? I am so scared that I sound annoying:( but that’s probably my social anxiety speaking. 

 

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My Blog and Me: The Troubled Couple

Lately, I’ve been a terrible blogger.

I’ve procrastinated on posts and struggled to stay on my schedule of Monday and Thursday, run out of interesting post ideas and motivation, and have kind of simply thrown things at you. Last-minute, half-baked ideas as well as sorry excuses for why my writing is virtual trash, complaints about how I’m running out of time.

You’re welcome.

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(kidding;)

Now that I look back at my blog posts, I think that I’m pretty proud of them. Of most of them, at least. But I don’t think that I have enough of the content that I would like to have.

Even if the posts look alright on the surface, there is one heck of an ugly framework supporting it invisibly. A lot of nights procrastinating and freaking out and typing frantically while math homework lies by ignored, a lot of internal anguish, stress and pressure with the upcoming deadline, even if it’s self-imposed.

Not to mention the fear of not being good enough or being judged that comes along with the darling social anxiety. The blue PUBLISH button is something to be fought and conquered before being pressed, after the internal debate and whispers in my mind that tell me what I’m writing isn’t good enough, people won’t like it, I’m complaining too much, I sound too happy, I sound too depressed.

I’m ashamed to say that, more than once, I’ve thought things too depressing to be published. Talks of depression would repulse visitors and drive away views.

My blog, obviously, is supposed to deal a lot with depression. I’m freaking “A Girl and Depression”. A girl with depression too afraid to speak of her depression? A girl who hides behind her smile, sometimes genuine and sometimes not, in both the real life and behind someone’s LED screen?

Originally, my blog was created to deal solely with my mental health. But I never wanted to be restricted to one topic, to always just talk about my depression and social anxiety.

Then I discovered some amazing personal blogs, and I think that’s something that I want to do. It’ll take some time, but I’ll see if I can transition into more personal blogging- telling you more about me, what I’m up to, my thoughts on things. That’s when my goal for this blog was changed, and I introduced my happy side.

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But nowadays, my happy side comes in flashes, and I want to talk about my bad days as well. The real dirty, dark and gritty depression and social anxiety, the type that makes “neurotically neutral” squirm, what some people try to avoid reading. And I’m ashamed that I want to shield that side. That I want to bury part of the truth that so many others need to hear.

And for that I am sorry.

Maybe I’m too hard on myself (I probably am). For one thing, I really like the majority of my posts! My blog probably doesn’t seem like a mound of dung, because it isn’t (which is disputable:p) but this is how I feel from the other end of the screen. Looking back at my posts, none of them are as bad as I felt they were. But it was simply the process that completely stressed me out, and quite frankly made blogging a terrifying chore.

Promises for myself:

  • I won’t procrastinate, for I’ll post when I want, which is normally more often than just twice a week.
  • I won’t keep anything deemed too gloomy or too dark from my blog if I want to talk about it.
  • I will write more about me, and what’s up in my life.
  • I don’t like the inflexibility of a fixed schedule, so I declare its sudden demise at this instant.
  • I will write whatever I want, whenever I want, however I want.
  • I’m going to make blogging fun for me again!

To be completely honest, I’m getting an extreme amount of self-doubt about this whole post right now; I am resisting the temptation to dive back in and edit this whole post ferociously, and perhaps to even delete it. So if you see this post, I probably just clicked that blue button with my eyes closed, desperately quickly before closing my laptop.

Well, that’s it for today. I have to admit that I have a chemistry test tomorrow that I’m not prepared for at all, and it is 11:00 PM, so I really must go.

I hope that you have a fantastic day, all of you! Smile lots and have fun:)

Xx, C ❤️

P.S. quick shout-out to the amazing Adventuring Girl for teaching me how to insert GIFs! Finally…I’ve been trying for so long and it’s never worked 😂thank you, Faith:)

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Comments Going to Spam!

Hi all 😊

I wanted to write this quick post because I just discovered that some comments on my posts are going to spam!

I always reply to nice comments; if I don’t say anything there’s a good chance that your comment was sorted out by the program.

To try to avoid being sorted into spam:

  1. Don’t put links in your comments; that will automatically make the comments sorted out
  2. Spell everything correctly in your comment

So I am sorry if I didn’t see your comments until now! I will make sure to reply to them, as they are quite lovely..

I hope that you have a fantastic day!

XO c ❤

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It’s Over 125! But That Is Not the Best Part.

Firstly, wow. I can’t believe it- AHHH! Thank you so much for reading what I have to say. You guys may not know it, but you help make my day 😊.

So thank you very much for that:)

However, (being the party pooper that I am 😝) I’m not as happy about this as I am about other things.

My favorite part about blogging is the people from the blogging community. For it truly is a community, and I love it! There’s a sense of support and empathy with always someone to read what you have to say, and lovely people to interact with.

Ah, the people! The kindness from virtual strangers haha, get it? double meaning…gosh I’m so corny sometimes is almost overwhelming, in the best way possible. It is absolutely lovely how people take the time to try to relate to each other, and comment their opinions, or advice, or encouragement, or compliments… I love it. I love being a part of this, as rewards go both ways.

There are many times when someone has left a comment that makes me smile, or sometimes even makes my day a bit brighter. Imagine that- just a little kindness from an online stranger goes a long way. This makes me realize how similar many of us are, really, and how kind people can be. Isn’t that amazing to think about?

Similarly, I feel so ecstatic whenever I comment something, and the person tells me that I’ve made their day. This is why I’m on here, this is why I’m blogging. I want to be able to relate to other people, let others know that they’re not alone, and maybe make someone happy!

Follows are simply numbers. It is the people that are important to me.

Thank you for your kindness. Thank you for talking to me, for giving me advice and encouragement, for helping me up when I’m feeling down (whether you realize it or not). Thank you for listening to what a random girl on the internet has to say.

Don’t let the numbers get you down,

xoxo, c. 💖


ps. Monday post-itivity coming soon!

pps. if I don’t catch you in my next post today, have a fantastic day! and please do let that blossom into a wonderful week:)

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Award Nominations!/ 5 Blogs I Love

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Hi all!:)

On Monday, I posted news of my nomination for the One Lovely Blog Award. Now, it’s my time to nominate bloggers. This was truly hard, as there are so many fantastic blogs out there and I know how much a blog means to the blogger. I made one piece of my own criteria for nominating- I only nominated the blogs I love with under 200 subscribers. I ultimately named five blogs, listed below. Please check them out, these blogs are fantastic! I truly think that they all are interesting, unique, and well-written. Of course, they are not the only blogs that I love and think are great.

The rules of being nominated:

  1. Thank the person who nominated you, and include a link to their blog
  2. Include the rules of the award and add the blog award badge as an image
  3. Write seven facts about yourself
  4. Nominate at most 15 other bloggers, and let them know

My Nominations (in alphabetical order):

  1. Blue Poetry-The author has beautifully written poetry as well as some posts about her life and thoughts; she is also battling mental health disorders. She is an amazing writer and I’d highly recommend checking out her blog, especially if you are interested in mental health. One of her fantastic poems is I Want to Protect You. I love it!!
  2. Dancers Ballet Life– A teen with a passion for ballet, she writes about her experiences ballet as well as other parts of her life in general. Even if you don’t do ballet (I don’t; if I tried to do ballet, I’d probably topple over like a tree 😂) all her posts about her experiences with ballet are fun and interesting. Her dedication is something to be admired, and her passion really shows through, which is why her blog’s so great!:) I loved her post Five Things Ballet Has Taught Me– it really shows how much a passion can give back to you.
  3. Dreams and Waves XO– From a teenage blogger that writes “a little bit of everything”, her bit of the blogosphere is incredibly interesting. Her blog includes pictures, thoughts and musings, and motivation. It’s a really fun, positive blog and I love it! She’s the one to follow if you’d like to read something light, refreshing, interesting, and/or thoughtful. Here’s her post about her thoughts on Luck, which has some really interesting thoughts and ideas about the said subject.
  4. Musings of a Millennial – An amazing poet who also writes about her mental health, Emma Pratt (username Emma Martine) writes beautiful poetry. Her pieces can speak for themselves- these are two of my favorites- You Have to Run Before You Fly and Bandages. I’d definitely recommend checking out her blog! Somehow, she takes her own ordinary experiences as well as other worldly happenings and shapes them, in lyrical form, into something melodic and meaningful. Her pieces on mental health are also important reads.
  5. They Once Called Her Pumpkin– A great blogger! She writes whatever is on her mind, which sometimes includes her battling with depression, as in her post (personally my favorite) Conquer that Coaster. She also shares some experiences of hers, such as an English assignment in You Say ‘Ruminate’ I Say ‘Illuminate’, which I personally found hilarious and incredibly unique of her. Her writing is unique and interesting, so do check out her blog!

See you on Monday! 😊

xoxo, c.

 

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The One Lovely Blog Award!

This is my first blogging award nomination! AHHH 😂 I’m so happy.

Thank you so much to Cheila for nominating me for the One Lovely Blog Award! Please do check out her blog, Pink for Days. She’s a fantastic blogger with such a genuine personality. So click on that link!;)

Here are the rules for being nominated:

  1. Thank the person who nominated you, and include a link to their blog
  2. Include the rules of the award and add the blog award badge as an image
  3. Write seven facts about yourself
  4. Nominate at most 15 other bloggers, and let them know

Seven Facts About Me
I write this blog anonymously, so I won’t include anything too revealing, but I’ll give you some interesting (or not so interesting) facts about me all the same!

  1. I live in the United States of America. That’s about as daring as I’ll get for now 😂
  2. My favorite color is blue! Any shade, really, but my absolute favorite is Carribbean blue, like the water on a tropical beach. Ahhh, so pretty and relaxing (unlike me 😂)
  3. I love to read books. I could read for hours on end, in utter bliss. This was a habit built up when I was little as a result of my depression, but it is the best addiction all the same. My favorite books are old classics!
  4. Only my best, best friend (we’ve been friends for literally over a decade!) knows that I have depression. I’m not ashamed of having depression or social anxiety, but it’s not exactly conversation material, is it? 😂 That may be the biggest problem with mental health.
  5. My biggest aspiration right now is to become a doctor. I want a job that’s meaningful, in which I get to help others!
  6. I’m an optimist who loves to daydream.
  7. My biggest goals in life are to be kind, help others, and have an impact, no matter how small, on the world.

For the nominations, I’ll release a list of them on Thursday. There are so many fantastic blogs to choose from!! I’m so sad that I can’t give nominations out to every blog that I love. I need time to decide this and make a post. Please note that I already have most of the 15 bloggers in mind, and my decisions will not be affected by more liking or commenting of or on my posts in the days leading up to my nominations; just a heads up;)

Have a fantastic couple of days, and I’ll see you on Thursday!

xoxo, c. 😊


~Post-itivity is coming along later today, too:)~

Older Monday Motivation

POST-ITITIVY: Life- You’ll Die Anyway

POST-ITIVITY: Failure

Post-itivity #1: THE JOURNEY

Ps Again, thank you so much Cheila! ❤